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damn liver!
Aug 26th
this whole update thing E made me skip a couple of entries…stupid microsoft!!
ok..so Jeegar got this eye problem…and i gotta put drops on his ugly ass eye every 4 hours…which is fucking insane…im soo tired…but the good news his eye is getting better!
he is sooo spoiled…he found the damn drops…and chew the whole thing up from the table!! i had to get another one..and he bought him self a 7 hour timeout…he hated it..and this time around Raha wasnt there to help him out. he now knows im the boss…so he really listens to me…which is the way it should be!!!
i almost forgot today was saturday…my days and nights are soo messed up..i get like 3 hours of sleep a night…and its not even continuous…
Soroushs been great…cant really ask for more…so far so good *knocks on wood*.
talked to me mommy and me daddy and also me sistaa…all seemed great…miss em…duhh? nothing really new these days…my scar looks wierd…but its almost completly healed…which is good…should start gym soon…schools starting…yuck!! hate school..schools for asses!!
speaking of ass!! lol…hmmmm! *drools*
i keed i keed!! small but important steps been taken towards the project…looks pretty promising!
thats all for now..im wayyy too tired to write more…and actually think about whats new…
piss off bitches!!
believe
Jul 17th
"tell me,
tell me how i feel
tell me what i think
tell me what i say
show me,
show me something new
show me all of you
show me all your scars, your sorrows
make me,
make me someone new
make me all confused
make me all i need
make me, show me, tell me to believe"
By RasaM
did i mention?
Jul 14th
not sure if i mentioned it b4…but i have two new set of rules here…
one is i dont read back what i wrote…and two is..i just write..and do not proof em…so if you see mistakes…im sorry in advance…but im just gonna type what i think..and let it be…
so my surgery thing E moved from 17th to 21st…i wish it didnt..wanted to get it over with…but mehh…
pretty much everyone is in Iran right now…and i wish i was there too..i really miss it…nothing feels like Iran..Iran feels like HOME…you dont get it till you actually move away from it..yap..its true…you dont know what you got till you lose it…
sometimes in life..you understand that people that care for you..are the people that are always there..thru the bad..and the good..and it makes me feel special…makes me feel really good…knowing that people care for me…somehow, however…all these shits about life seems to fade away…sometimes ifeel liek where am i gonna be in 20 years…in Iran..where i still call home? Canada? states? Europe? who knows i guess..but i wanna do what i care for..what i have passion for…and i guess thats it…people really dont understand other people..but they try anyways..they feel like people can be simplified…its not math…i tried to tell em..but they dont listen..they never do..and never will…
life has been great to me..and i always tried to live it like there is no tomorrow…like today is my last…and i feel good..i dont have any regrets…all the mistakes were lessons..and i tried my best to never repeat them again…i wouldnt change that for the world…a new era is about to unfold in my life…these new times are surley different…i can feel it…good or bad? no clue..dont ask me…
ne homa
Jul 6th
im feeling wierd again…happend last week as well..i cant explain it..but its just wierd…im getting my back fixed…which is always exciting!
i dont know how im actually gonna hold up…i feel like the first day of school…or like your first date…its not a horrible feeling…but its not fun either..you dont know what to expect…and ive never been under the knife before..so you know…
i hear he is one of the best in the world..so that makes me feel much better…i just wanna get this thing over with…
folks are coming back tomorrow..so wierd…i miss them so very much…and i am listening to ebi at work..me and ebi eh? its just some amazing songs and lyrics…
Setarehaye Sorbi is a GREAT album…reminds of Iran and great memories…speaking of Iran, shit man…i miss everybody..i miss everything about it…somehow i always envision my future in Iran…who knows eh?
when i get my back in line…im gonna train like never before…i dont know for what…but i wanna start playing sports like i used to do it..
i cant handle this whole 9-5 thing all top of all that other shit…so i donnu whats up..i know this "break" that im getting is gonna be helpful, but we shall see i guess…
i dont know how im actually gonna hold up…i feel like the first day of school…or like your first date…its not a horrible feeling…but its not fun either..you dont know what to expect…and ive never been under the knife before..so you know…
i hear he is one of the best in the world..so that makes me feel much better…i just wanna get this thing over with…
folks are coming back tomorrow..so wierd…i miss them so very much…and i am listening to ebi at work..me and ebi eh? its just some amazing songs and lyrics…
Setarehaye Sorbi is a GREAT album…reminds of Iran and great memories…speaking of Iran, shit man…i miss everybody..i miss everything about it…somehow i always envision my future in Iran…who knows eh?
when i get my back in line…im gonna train like never before…i dont know for what…but i wanna start playing sports like i used to do it..
i cant handle this whole 9-5 thing all top of all that other shit…so i donnu whats up..i know this "break" that im getting is gonna be helpful, but we shall see i guess…
ghorbat
Jun 23rd
"Salam
Salam baba, dele maa khoone
dele maa lak zade vaase khoone
Salam
Salam madar, panaahe akhar
Shodam az dooorie to khaakestar
malaali nist joz doori,
be laab, laab khandaki zoori
be nerkhe mofte joon kandan, baram soo soo zade noori
be zaaher kheyli aabaadam
too aksaam az gham aazaadam
vali ghose too een ghorbat, saraasar daade bar baadam
midoonesti ke eenja ghahtie marde?
be sahme zende moondan, mazaye darde
be nerkhe mofte haraaje javoon mardi
deela sarde deelaa sarde dela sarde
delaa sarde
pedar mardom hame eenja ghariban
refaaghat ra mesle maa haa nadidan
kasi kari nadare baa dele mardom
sare mardoonegia haro boridan, boridan
age migam delam khoone
nake az ghose daaghoone
faghat tange delam eenja
zade par par vaase khoone
na saazaam bi sedaa moonde
na seene bi havaa moonde
na jiban khaalie amma…delam pishe shoma moonde
miam, miam khoone
hamoon khoone
ke mide baaz booye gole poone
neveshtam, hame jesmam, delo joonam haminjaast, tooye IRANE"
by Eilya Monfared
